Back to basics. It is nice to generalise, to expand to the limit, but it is draining. What I mean is, I am interested in accepting the things that seem unacceptable, because they have a deeper meaning than just “wrong”. So it is fun and meaningful to apply this to everything - my tiredness, my can’t-be-bothered-ness, my disillusion with all this accepting etc etc. And to think that this might be a way to enlightenment.
But tonight in Così I went back to basics. Forget the expanding of consciousness. Just play the horn, for goodness sake! So back to where I started. See the notes I have to play. Get ready, then let go. Don’t try to play them. Do nothing. It works. Be brave. It comes out perfectly.
I also find a secondary way. Imagine exactly how you want to play the next bit, then let go. This isn’t as good because your imagination can be restricting. But it works OK and pleases the ego because it feels as if it is doing something. It feels more familiar.
Così 9
Monday, 28 June 2010
